Lately I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my blog. As some of you know I started a page on my blog titled My Story. It recalls the time that Barry and I spent on a church staff years ago. That was a very difficult time in our life, marriage and ministry. We whole heartedly take ownership of the issues we brought upon ourselves. However, there was an amount of control and manipulation that caused us and many others a great amount of harm. But most importantly it gave us a wrong and twisted view of scripture, pastoral ministry and church leadership. And, for a couple that undoubtedly feels a call to ministry…this was very confusing and debilitating.
I’ve had a number of personal emails urging me to leave the past alone and to press on to what is ahead. I so appreciate people writing me with a sincere and genuine heart, but what I must tell you is that the past has been joyfully and wholeheartedly forgiven. 🙂 There is no malice or hatred behind what I write. My heart and goal is simply to show how quickly the church can turn against what it should stand for…at the hands of the humans who lead her.
There are too many pastors and leaders seeking a position for their own gain. We know it first hand, we saw the devastation and harm it caused and still continues to cause.
Abuse can only continue when victims remain silent…I have painfully committed to be one that will speak up.
So, in all fairness I would like for my wonderful and faithful readers to know my heart, but to also know where my blog is headed for a season. If you subscribed in the beginning months and you now realize that this isn’t something you like or enjoy…please feel free to un-subscribe. I promise I won’t be offended or hurt. I totally understand. But, with going from 45 views a week to almost 3,000 I can’t help but see the need right in front of my eyes. People are hurting, they want a voice, they need to be validated…they want to know they aren’t alone and crazy.
So, as I write please know that Barry and I are in a healthy, loving church. We have moved on, we have forgiven and released our hearts to God for healing. I do not think I would be able to write in such a vulnerable manner if this were not the case.
I would like to extend a HUGE thank you to all of my faithful readers. Your love, support and comments make my day! The My Story page will continue. I have removed the password, so that you can freely access the stories. Barry will be writing from his perspective soon. I personally can’t wait for that. He is a talented writer and he can’t help but speak the truth in love… the truth without walls.